Decisions

It's a decision,
between my health and my happiness.

I make it everyday,
several times a day.

Seeing other people that are more or less of something
than I am, doesn't change that I am not happy with this.

I am the only one who has to love me,
but I don't know if I can.

I'm itching for some sense of direction,
and some help with these decisions.

Get behind the wheel,
stay in front of the storm.

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